Hi, This is the Page on which I will be archiving all my university study modules that i will recieve throughout my time here.
-Negativity- 
what negativity? CLEANSE YOUR MIND !
Year 1
Unit 1 – Portraits and Identities
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Unit 5 – Animation “never underestimate the predictability of stupidity”
Year 2!
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Movie – Up
Maya Nibbles - Heavy Gear in progress, Game Modelling test
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Post Modernism
Transcription – A Wing and a Prayer
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Dii! Stop being a bloody masochist! Groan – look, I know you’re struggling, but why are you disappearing, when the right thing to do is ‘re-appear’? How am I supposed to advise/help/support you if you don’t interact with the systems that are there to assist you? I don’t want you to fall on your sword and ‘feel sick with anxiety’ – what I want is for you to succeed; I texted you yesterday asking you to attend your tuesday afternoon tutorial – but you didn’t show… so what now? I’m not in again until Thursday of next week; what I suggest you do is find a way for me to review your animation submission, so I can see if it will pass, and I suggest you also email me all your virtual anatomy work asap, so I can see your progress. Sort it – and I don’t want you to panic, feel bad, or crucify yourself, what I want is you to take a firm grip on your young, exciting life and get in touch IMMEDIATELY….
im not trying to cruify my self, saying things such as that REALLY help me continue with my work, i know what i need to do i just need to do it, i will send you somthing when i have it, my dad is also asking me the same thing, i dont want people to be all worried about me, i just want to DO the work, again i am GOING to do the animation essay TONIGHT even if it kills me and i will send it to you. im behind on everything so im trying to do everything, i dont want to take peoples time when i dont need to because i know what i need to do (more or less)
again i will send you what i have when i have somthing to send you, i swear.
“what I want is you to take a firm grip on your young, exciting life”
thats just what im trying to do! :O
extreme negative posts like up there are a way for me to expel my negative thoughts and clear my head, as biblical as it may sound im not at halls slitting my wrists (yet lol)
Hi Dii – yes, I understand that you’re not actually nailing yourself to a wooden cross, and I’m not presuming you’re in a terminally dark place, I’m just suggesting that when you feel like this, you should ruminate less, and show up more! It would actually be enjoyable to see you, even though we might have to ‘talk-the-talk’ ! Don’t hide away, Dii
‘talk-the-talk’ hahaha, yea i know what you mean :/
i do too enjoy speaking to you in person, what makes me hide is the thoughts that get spun around and past experiances of teachers going “ahh you bastard!” well not quiet like that but u get the idea
so in my head i have
phil – peaceful
few days later
raised-eyebrow-phil – hint of “wtf” still peaceful
few days later
folded arms, furred face, tapping foot phil – “omg wtf” very restless
few days later
fire breathing demonic with anti Dii blood lust phil – complete “WTF” powers have taken control
far fetched? but its somthing like that, past experiance have pretty much said “they dont want to see you, they want to see you do the work, turning up with no work is like saying ‘yeah well i dont care really…’ or somthing”
but yes, i am now in super positive mode
TA DAA!
fire-breathing demon? Moi? I’m a kitten, Dii – but I won’t lie to you, and that’s the bit you dread; being reminded of a truth you already know to be true; that you’re falling behind, not because you’re stupid, but rather because you struggle to organise yourself sometimes AND much more significantly, isolationism doesn’t work for you; you need to come in, you need to be around your peers, you can’t let a single day drift, as that’s when your anxiety powers up; if you stay away, you falter – and that is the truth you don’t enjoy hearing because you know it’s true – and that it is avoidable…
End of Year 1
(Hi Dii – below is an email I’ve been trying to send you for the last couple of days, but the UCA system isn’t allowing us to send out external emails… I’ll try and send you the brief as soon as I’m able…)
Dear Dii,
I’ve reattached the brief for you – read it again; in regard to the specific requirements, what you need to do is create a body of work that demonstrates in no uncertain terms that you can take an idea from 2d components (concept art, storyboards) through to resolved c g; in other words that you can be your own ideas person, art director, modeller, lighting designer, animator… + self-promoter and publisher! Essentially, you must demonstrate you have the necessary skills and dedication to get the very best out of your second year. I’m not going to say much more because your ability to ’see’ how to create a body of work is one of the skills I’m most keen you demonstrate…
I just want to reiterate what I said yesterday; I think you’re a lovely lad – sensitive, funny – and with a world of stories in your head; I also think that a part of you is sad and scared and that often you expect the worst; well I say fuck that – it’s time you proved to all those negative voices in your head that you are much more than the sum of your past experiences and that you can become a confident, successful individual – (who also needs to stop eating crap, sleep regularly and get some exercise) – okay, enough from me – go accomplish something that’s going to make me say ‘wow’.
For reference take a look at tom’s blog http://www.tombeg.blogspot.com, and also Zack at http://www.wakkamole.blogspot.com
Have fun and work hard and I look forward to hand-in
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good luck to you dii!